summer is gone. more rains to come.

it has really been warm the past weeks. and i spent it wearing pants and rubber shoes while staying in a room deprived or air. summer has not been fun for me really. waking up 3 in the morning to review yesterday's 2-hour discussion on the reactions occurring in carbon atoms of different compounds... leaving the house at 6am so as not to miss the 7am quiz... which i usually fail... then listening again to the 2-hour discussion. but actually after 30 mins. i start fighting with sleepiness but end up losing the fight and dozing off. sigh. then i chat for 2 hours and do reports for the next 2 hours... then enter our incinerator-like room and cover with white gown my already sweaty covered body... deal with fumes, effervescence, and more heat. if luck finds its way, ice bath may be present or an aircon-ed room may be available for the lectures.
now that all these are in the past, i can actually say... i'm not missing it. i miss the people i was with but not the place and the activities. i'm happy it's over, even though i am not satisfied with the results. i just hope god makes up for all these bad things that happened to me. makes up for the wasted summer.
now, many things aside from grades make it to my head. and they're killing me. i just wish my mission in this world does not have to do with music or singing. if ever, i'll have to stay longer, which i do not like. i have to go as soon as possible.