sniff, sniff, sniff...

it's kinda freaky how a certain scent could trigger so much memories. or maybe it scares me because of my retrieval failure, which inhibits me from seeing the huge picture of a memory. i could not fully understand the past that my sense of smell presents to me. it simply becomes a familiar feeling. detatched from the rich meaning that used to make sense to me.
this scares me a lot. to death. what if my nose's retrieval failure is contageous and then infect my eyes? what if both of them bacome unable to trigger memories? my eyes store more events, pictures and feelings like my nose. what do i do without those? what happens to the memory lost? will the world still make sense? will i still matter?